Apathy sucks. Since hearing last week that I did not get the North Baltimore job I have felt very apathetic. I got my hopes up for that job. I knew it wasn't a done deal, but I figured the odds were good nonetheless. I have much I would like to be doing now, as well as with this summer. I need to figure out how I'm paying back my loans, how I'm making money after schools let out, where I'm working next year, where I'm living next year. I'm not terribly worried about those things, and that is fine, but I don't give a shit about them and that isn't fine. These are big things, and even if they don't stress me out I should still care.
But I don't...
I'm making myself take care of the loan thing today, but I wouldn't be surprised if I convince myself to put it off again. I need a list, or a set of goals. Maybe with a reward system so that I get excited for accomplishing things. Maybe once I've done a couple of those things I'll be more excited for the rest. At any rate, here are some of the things I would like to accomplish this summer. Feel free to ask me anytime how my list is coming.
-Find a job for the fall
-Finish Lord of the Rings
-Write a song or three
-Read something that challenges me
-Make more of my own meals (maybe cook through a smaller cook book)
-Brew a pilsner or another summery beer
-Exercise, eat better, lose weight
-Get in the bible a good deal more
-Pray more often
-Lose a few strokes in my disc golf game
-Bike the entire Slippery Elm Trail
-Take sidewalk chalk to the trail and write encouraging messages for the runners, bikers and bladers.
-More hugs and high-fives
Its a start. This summer, let's kick apathy's ass. Let's grab it by the ankles, shake it and steal its lunch money. Let's get excited. This is a season to do stuff.
Its a start.
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